Current mood: worried
Have you taken a serious look at yourself and asked, "Where has my growth been over the past year?" What areas have I established an increase of personal enhanced development? What areas in my life have I found a decrease in personal enhanced development? What has changed my life over 2005? Would you consider them to be positive or negative?
As you all know I stand at the current age of 26. With that being said, there has been numerous situations in my life that are out of my control to which has left me a bit perturbed over the past few weeks (again). If you've been an avid reader to my blogs, you're aware that I moved back home, you're aware that I went back to school...lest to admit, at a junior college for crying out loud. You're aware that I took a substantial paycut what I used to earn versus what I currently make, provided I work with only nominal hours. All this so I can find SELF GRATIFICATION/SOUL GRATIFICATION- suffice to say, so I CAN FIND MYSELF-- to find MY CAREER CALLING.
I'm sure, you too, can admit that sometimes we wish we could reverse time- perhaps 17 years ago. Gone are the days-- worry free ages, playful years of finding true peers, & childish laughable moments. Moments hit us hard now-- never ending debt- credit cards, insurance, house payments & for those of us who have a family or child- extra money to save for future college tuition, medical costs, & still finding time to spluge happily as a family. How can we find personal mental & financial stability & happiness in our everyday lives? If I'm at 26 still finding myself how about those that have more things to worry about and still in search of themselves?
I ask myself these questions because sometimes it's SO hard to laugh deeply when we're too concerned about what tomorrow will bring. I want to graduate ASAP. I want to travel ASAP. I want to have my own home ASAP. But I know, it's not going to simply happen. I remind myself all this has to include the assistance of God, the assistance of preserverance, the assistance of personal willpower & the 'want' to change my attitude, the assistance of encouragement from other people, & most of all patience with a hint of Love all mixed in.
Only a few more weeks, Godwilling, the year draws to a close. What kinds of resolutions are you/will you make? What can you change about yourself to be a "better" (or shall I say 'wiser') person? How can YOUR decisions affect others? WHO will BE affected by your decisions?
Many more blessings to you and your family.... I bid farewell
Love, Peace, & Happiness,Michelle
